It is April 15th. APRIL FUCKING 15TH and I’m still not over it. It’s been 7 fucking months that I’ve been stuck on you. I try to move on to other guys but all I do is compare them to you. I can’t even look at another guy without knowing that they’re second best. When I see you my heart drops like nothing has changed. I feel like if I even try to have a relationship with someone else, I can only think of you. It is pathetic to think that I fell so hard for someone who was never mine. I want you out of my life, but then I’ll miss you. There is no way to go about this….no way I can think of as the solution. I tell myself to move on but my heart isn’t cooperating with my mind, the type of simple logic that whatever happens you will never love me and you will always be in love with her. I’m embarrassed to tell anyone this, embarrassed because it blows my fucking mind that there’s only a month left in school and my feelings are still stuck in September.
Rant.
Anonymous
